for that which is no longer ours
SEASONS PAST
The Hippocampus
Yasmine Diaz
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Yasmine Diaz is a writer from NYC that functions in both fiction and nonfiction. When she isn't combing through her feelings by writing them into poems or prose, she is creating playlists and taking pictures of nature.
The Hippocampus
is a part of the human brain that controls memory, it plays a part in memory retrieval, Or did you forget that like you forgot where you put your keys?, memory function and spatial navigation. Did you forget where you were?
There are two of them, on each side of the hemisphere of the human cerebral. The small buds that convert short term memory into long term memory, are nestled in the temporal lobe.
You forgot who I was. controls memory. It was the second worst day of my life. I remember how stiff I got, how I couldn’t form words. Words to tell you who I was, and how I ended up in front of you. retrieval.
I remember at that moment feeling so tiny and distracted. That I was in your way. spatial. That you shouldn’t have to work to remember me. retrieval. I knew that you forgot things and people. I never wanted to push you to remember who I was.
I could remember for the both of us.
I remember for the both of us. That is what I do now.
There are things that only you and I (two) used to know, that now only I know. Things that I have let go of in order to move on with my life. function. Things I have a tight grip on in order to guilt myself into not forgetting you entirely. function. I have forgotten the way to your house. navigation. But I can’t forget the pans on the stove or the green tiled floor. human. I have let go of the way your living room looked but I hold onto the presents you got me for my birthday. human. And the truth is I keep that singular moment where you forgot me a secret. control. A moment that the hippocampus in my brain calls up every year around the time I grew one year older and you left, in that order.